I haven't ever been able to go through a Christmas where I haven't been able to buy for anyone, even know everyones says they understand the position I am in, I feel sad because Christmas is about giving and I can't give nothing but a simple hug. I hope that is enough.
I see all of the Christmas decorations out and the Christmas cheer of everyones faces but for some reason I can't get into the Christmas spirit. I don't mean to bring everyone down with posting this depressing blog but getting it out makes me feel better. I really wish all of you Happy Holidays !!!