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Wednesday, October 31, 2007

I'd Rather Feel Pain Then Nothing At All

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain

Monday, October 29, 2007

The desire to cut...onself

I fall into deep depression, wanting to cry, scream in silence, and I don't have the guts to cut myself. I wonder from day to day where these feelings come from. My lifestyle is a pit hole with no light at the end of the tunnel. I found my happiness through Ted (My Boyfriend), I am truly happy with him, I feel his love for me, when he makes love to me and the way he holds me, he truly cares for me, I am In Love with him, but being In Love is not true happiness, just temperory happiness. When I'm not with him, I am lonely, scared, and frightened of the things I might inflict upon myself.

I pray, with every intention to become better. I write as if I am writing in my personal diary. Today I don't love myself, but tomorrow I might care, its me writing while taking medications and they seem to be over ruled...;(

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Faking Happiness

Have you meant anyone that to you seem to be faking their happiness? As they brag on their beautiful home, their great job, their beautifully behaved children and their hunk of a man husband? I have not experienced this, is anybody actually that happy? I've had a lot of time to think about my lifestyle and where I came to be (most recently the gutter) and realized that happiness comes from your heart and not exactly what happens around you. Your children could be perfect, husband addored and house of a manison and that person could still be deeply depressed, crazed and confused.

Take my life for example, if you've read any of my other blogs you would know that I am deeply depressed, but my lifestyle is living here and there. I thikn sometimes, and I don't know why, or can explain it, but I feel as if I want to stay depressed. Its hard to explain, and its not about attention, but the feelings come from my inner core and have recently come to the surface, sometimes they even scare me, like its not even me, or maybe its that damn menopause...

Saturday, October 27, 2007

The cutting Edge

What gives a human soul the thought to self destruct? the desire to feel pain inflicted onto them. Most of time I feel numb, I just want to feel something, whether it be love, anger, destruction or pain. And then I choose to stay numb, by using anything to not feel anything. I wonder how about I began to become the way that I am. Was it my childhood lifestyle, my past relationships? maybe Karma if anyone believes in that.
I've become my own worse emeney, cutting, straving, and self pity, I grovel, and scream and cry. No I don't think the world owes me anything, I just feel the way I do because my emotions take over. It isn't me, its someone else, its a "I dont feel, or want to feel anything, so just leave me be". I want to leave this life of mine, but I wouldn't do it by drowning, I have a fear of drowning, or maybe I should and face my fear. I want to sleep and never wake up, cut myself and watch me bleed. I am not one to faint of the site of blood, I am a retired Nurse. I ask myself what there is left in this life of mine, and I have not come up with any answers, so I just cut, take pills, and cry...

Friday, October 26, 2007

End of the World "Predictions"

Predictions have been made of several events that some Christians believe are related: the second coming of Jesus, the war of Armageddon, the arrival on earth of the Antichrist, the Tribulation, the Rapture, some horrendous natural disaster, etc. Jewish, Islamic, psychic and occult predictions have also been offered as well. 1

In this section of our web site, we have listed over 7 dozen past predictions of the end of the world which have one factor in common: none ever came true. There is every likelihood that most (perhaps all) of the future predictions will not materialize either.

We have been criticized by some of our readers for whipping up hysteria about the end of the world. Our intent is the exact opposite: we want to dampen the level of panic. We hope that by listing many dozens of past predictions all of which have failed, people will realize that some very prominent individuals have been consistently wrong when they predicted the end of the world. End of the world predictions have been common throughout Christianity and other religions for almost 2000 years. Thus, the public has little to fear from prophets who predict a particular date for the world's end.

With the escalation of tensions in Lebanon in 2006-JUL, many Christian leaders predicted that the end had already begun. This created an intense interest among many conservative Christians about TEOTWAWKI (The End Of The World As We Know It) prophecies. Some indications of increasing concern were:

During the first half of 2006, this essay had been approximately the tenth most popular essay on our web site of 3,540 essays However, during 2006-JUL it rose quickly to the most popular essay.
WorldNetDaily, a conservative Protestant news organization noted:

"Prophecy-related products continue to be popular among WorldNetDaily readers, with two books on Israel’s involvement in end-times predictions coming in at No. 2 and 3 on ShopNetDaily’s weekly best-seller list—Dave Hunt’s 'Judgement Day! Islam, Israel and the Nations' and Greg Laurie's 'Are We Living in the Last Days?' " 2

Gary DeMar, writing for American Vision, a "biblical wordview ministry" commented:

"Why shouldn’t Christians snatch up these end-time books? They’re being told by prophetic writers that this is the generation that will see the rapture. Of course, previous generations of Christians were told the same thing. I predict that the prophetic scenario outlined by the authors of the books that appear on WorldNetDaily’s list will not take place as predicted. And when they don’t, memories will fade, and a new group of authors will join well-established prophecy writers and publish books that will start the cycle all over again that a Middle East Armageddon is inevitable and on the horizon." 3

We offer no guarantees that the prophets listed below actually made these predictions. We have described their alleged predictions as they were reported on the Web, in newspapers, books, etc. We do not have the resources to track down orginal source material.

These TEOTWAWKI (The End Of The World As We Know It) prophecies for 2006 have all failed:
2006-JAN-25: James Kingsley predicted a major "earthquake Storm" near Los Angeles, CA. It was to start shortly after midnight of 2006-JAN-25, last for 2 hours, and be centered in Redondo Beach. The individual quakes range in magnitude from 7.1 to 7.9, and will be called "The Big One". 4
2006-MAY-25: Eric Julien of the Exopolitics Institute predicted that a remnant from a comet would hit the Atlantic ocean and generate massive tsunami almost 200 meters (650 feet) in height. Most heavily affected will be the Atlantic coasts between the equator and the Tropic of Cancer. He predicted that there will be tens of millions of deaths. North America and Europe was to be hit with less devastating tsunamis. Dozens of underwater volcanoes were to erupt, raising the temperature of the ocean to the boiling point. He based these predictions on a series of visions that he has had. 5
2006-JUN-06: According to an E-mail that we received, the writer believes that "666," the number of the beast mentioned in the biblical book of Revelation, is really a date: 06/06/06 or 2006-JUN-6. He expected the rapture and start of the tribulation on that date.
A movie "The Beast" was released on this day. The story involves the discovery that Jesus Christ never existed. "The authors of the Gospels, writing 40 to 90 years after the supposed life of Christ, never intended for their works to be read as biographies." 6 The screen play involves apparently involves a momentous event in 2006-JUN-06 (6-6-06). What the event is is unclear. The staff have been sworn to secrecy. Nothing notable happened.

2006-AUG-22: Glenn Beck, anchor for CNN Headline News, predicted on 2006-AUG-09 that AUG-22:

"... is the day that Israel might be wiped off the map, leading to all-out Armageddon. ... [It] could be the day that Agnostics get down on one knee and start to pray, 'Sweet Jesus, are you coming today'? "

When AUG-22 arrived without any sign of Armageddon, Beck responded to a critical E-mail from a viewer by saying:

"I wasn't predicting Armageddon today. ... We talked about the predictions of renowned Middle East scholar Bernard Lewis. It is amazing to me to be called a nut job for quoting a scholar who thinks we might expect aggressive behavior from a man who wants to wipe Israel off the map. I know. Sounds crazy! But, hey, who has time to actually listen?" 7

Bernard Lewis wrote in the Wall Street Journal on 2006-AUG-08:

"In Islam, as in Judaism and Christianity, there are certain beliefs concerning the cosmic struggle at the endof time--Gog and Magog, anti-Christ, Armageddon, and for Shiite Muslims, the long awaited return of the Hidden Imam, ending in the final victory of the forces of good over evil, however these may be defined. Mr. Ahmadinejad and his followers clearly believe that this time is now, and that the terminal struggle has already begun and is indeed well advanced. It may even have a date, indicated by several references by the Iranian president to giving his final answer to the U.S. about nuclear development by Aug. 22. This was at first reported as 'by the end of August,' but Mr. Ahmadinejad's statement was more precise."

"What is the significance of Aug. 22? This year, Aug. 22 corresponds, in the Islamic calendar, to the 27th day of the month of Rajab of the year 1427. This, by tradition, is the night when many Muslims commemorate the night flight of the prophet Muhammad on the winged horse Buraq, first to 'the farthest mosque,' usually identified with Jerusalem, and then to heaven and back (cf Koran XVII.1). This might well be deemed an appropriate date for the apocalyptic ending of Israel and if necessary of the world. It is far from certain that Mr. Ahmadinejad plans any such cataclysmic events precisely for [2006-]AUG-22. But it would be wise to bear the possibility in mind. 8
SEP-08/09: The Lord's Witness and the True Bible Code predicted that a nuclear bomb will hit the UN plaza in Manhattan on the Sabbath, sometime between sundown on SEP-08 and sundown on SEP-09. This is the same group who predicted that the UN would take over the world sometime between 2001-MAR-26 and APR-24 and that a word-wide famine would being during 2001-SEP.
SEP-12: The House of Yahweh issued a news release stating that nuclear war was to begin on SEP-12. The war would start around the Euphrates River. Their leader, Yisrayl Hawkins, says that the countdown to the nuclear war began with the signing of the Oslo accords on 1993-SEP-13. He interprets the Book of Daniel as stating that this is a seven year agreement but would take 14 years to be fully carried out. He interprets Revelation as implying that nuclear war would begin a year, a month and a day prior to the end of the Oslo agreement. Hawkings has posted a video clip on that explains his predictions. 9

Eliezer Kamotho, an elder of the House of Yahweh group in Kenya, said that North Korea's nuclear bomb test on 2006-OCT-09 proved that a nuclear war was about to begin.
DEC-17: Dr. Jose Luis de Jesus Miranda predicted that Jesus Christ's second coming would happen in Puerto Rico on DEC-17. His website stated, in part:
"Este 17 de diciembre, el mundo será testigo de la segunda venida de Cristo. El Rey de Reyes llega a suelo boricua. Puerto Rico será el escenario donde cientos de personas presenciarán en vivo, mientras millones sintonizarán vía satélite, el evento que marcará el rumbo de la historia."

A rough translation is:

"This December 17th the world will be a witness of the second coming of Christ. The king of kings will touch upon the boricuan [Hispanic] land. Puerto Rico will be the stage where hundred’s of people will witness 'live' while millions will watch through satellite TV the event that will put a mark upon history." 10

It didn't happen either.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

"Mitsu Fuso Cantor Eco-D Concept"


I was reading boing boing’s web page, it seems to be the attention getter. they have everything listed on the page that is eye catching and interesting. today on boing boing gadgets was a vehicle that looked simpler to a box. everyone has their differences in taste for looks in a vehicle. I think that as the years roll by everything turns into a boxy form. all the 2007 vehicles are boxy looking, big and bold. the mitsubishi fuso dump truck, you can’t even tell weather its coming or going, which is the front side, or are we looking at the back side.

the tokyo auto show turned out to be one of the most exciting years, with tons of great concept cars (not to mention the introduction of the nissan gt-r). the latest was the fuso cantor “eco-d” concept dump truck from mitsubishi. the fuso is one of the greatest truck brands of the world, used for a variety of purposes. it does remind me of a tonka truck, the presser is all in japanese, so we can’t regale you with tales of whatever brand of hybrization that’s going on under all that shiny metal, but who would of guess that it would be a diesel truck. they call it “Mitsu fuso cantor eco-d concept” what a long name for such a small vehicle. check out the picture and let me know if you can tell the front from the back.


Shame is associated with the expression of certain emotions. In many families, as well as in many cultures, expression of such feelings as anger, fear, sadness or vulnerability, may be met with shaming reproaches, such as "Pull yourself together," "Don't be a baby," "Stop crying or I'll give you something to cry about," or "YOU don't have anything to be afraid of." Pride is also a feeling that is often met with shameful condemnations, such as "Who do YOU think you are, Mr. Bigshot?," or "You're getting too big for your britches." Often these shaming admonitions are internalized, so that when we get in touch with any of these "shameful feelings" we will automatically feel shame, and try to control or hide the feelings, or, at the very least, to apologize profusely for them.

Clearly these shaming inner voices can do considerable damage to our self esteem. These self criticisms, that we are stupid, selfish, a show-off, etc., become, in varying degrees, how we see ourselves. For some of us, the inner critical judge is continuously providing a negative evaluation of what we are doing, moment-by-moment. As mentioned before, the inner critic may make it impossible for one to do anything right, telling you that you are too aggressive, or not aggressive enough, that you're too selfish, or that you let people walk all over YOU.
shame manifests itself physically in a wide variety of forms. The person may hide their eyes; lower their gaze; blush; bite their lips or tongue; present a forced smile; or fidget. Other responses may include annoyance, defensiveness, exaggeration or denial. Because the affect of shame often interferes with our ability to think, the individual may experience confusion, being at a loss for words, or a completely blank mind.

Helen B. Lewis, a pioneer in recognizing the importance of shame to psychotherapy, argued that shame really represents an entire family of emotions. This family includes: humiliation, embarrassment, feelings of low self-esteem, belittlement, and stigmatization. Shame is often a central ingredient in experiences of being:


Shame Quotes
1.Shame is an ornament of the young; a disgrace of the old.
2.A nightingale dies for shame if another bird sings better.
3.If yet not lost to all the sense of shame.
4.O shame, where is thy blush?
5.If we are not ashamed to think it, we should not be ashamed to say it.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Making that one more attempt...

If you are always willing to make one more attempt, you can
reach whatever goal you choose. No matter what results you
get, the only real failure is when you stop making the

When you are mistaken, you can learn. when you are knocked
down, you can get back up.

When you find that you've veered off track, you can correct
your direction. When you discover that circumstances have
changed, you can make adjustments accordingly.

Eventually, you'll reach the point at which the next attempt
you make is the one that will complete the desired
accomplishment. What a shame it would be to stop just one
effort short of success.

For that next effort will make all the others pay off.
Commit yourself to making one more effort, one more attempt,
as often as necessary, and anything is within your reach.

Keep making that one more attempt, keep getting back up, and
Keep moving forward in the direction of your goal, one step
after another. And you will surely get there.

YouTube Design "Hugs"

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Self Mutilation

Self-Injury or Self-Mutilation?

Self-injury is not something people talk about very often, but for an estimated 2 to 3 million Americans it is a serious problem. The majority of people who self-injure are women between the ages of 13 and 30, but there are "cutters" of every age, gender, and economic group.
People who "self-injure" are not usually suicidal. They do however, intentionally inflict injuries upon themselves, usually in response to stress or trauma. Their injuries may vary from minor cuts that heal quickly to very serious wounds that leave permanent scars. This is also known as "Deliberate Self-Harm Syndrome".
If you or someone you know self-injuries, please get professional help right away. This is just an overview of a very complex myriad of syndromes.
Self-injury usually indicates that somewhere during development that person didn't learn good ways of coping with overwhelming feelings or stress. They’re not sick or insane; they just never learned positive ways to deal with feelings and emotions for various reasons. Positive coping skills can be learned at any point in life. People who self-injure can learn to use new and healthier coping mechanisms. This process may take years to develop with the help of a skilled therapist familiar with this condition.

The late Princess Diana's word's shocked the world when she admitted in a television interview that she intentionally cut her arms and legs and had thrown herself down a flight of stairs on more than one occasion. FINALLY, self-injury -- the practice of deliberately cutting, scatching, burning, or otherwise injuring one's own body -- was about to come out of the closet. After that interview thousands of self-injury survivors called or wrote the media in response to that interview in just the United States alone.

Cutting seems to be the most common type of self-injury. "Cutters" often use razors, utility knives, scissors, needles, broken glass, or whatever they find to make repetitive slices on their arms, legs or other body parts. Some people burn themselves with cigarettes or lighters, others pull out their own hair. Many people who self-injure say they do it because they normally feel "numb" and cutting helps them to "feel alive." Others talk about the "sense of control" they may get from self-injury. This may be the first time or thing that they have felt a sense of control in their lives. Most agree that incidents of self-injury are triggered by stress and anxiety.

Self-injury is usually kept secret, and the "cutter" often feels deep shame and guilt from this ritual. People who self-injure are at risk for infections if their wounds are not treated properly. Permanent scarring can also result from self-injury and often does. Many people who self-injure wear long pants, long-sleeved shirts, and turtle-necks even in warm weather to conceal the marks they've left on their own bodies.

Why Do People Self-Injure?

This problem is not completely understood by health care professionals or psychologists. It seems to be most common among people who have been sexually abused as children, molested as children, or by survivors of "sexual_abuse.htm".
Whatever the context or reason, self-injury seems to function as a coping mechanism. "Cutters" use self-harm to feel calm, "in control," or just to "feel something." However, self-injury is not a healthy coping mechanism - it is a self-destructive behavior that probably reflects deeper, more complicated mental health or personal problems.

Some Common Factors of Self-Injury

1.Age of onset between 10 - 16 years old
2.There was a major change in the teen's life -- parents divorce or death
3.There is a history of family violence, abuse or sexually abuse
4.Intense feelings of fear, hurt, anger, rejection or abandonment
5.Feelings of loss and or need for control

Some Common Reasons Why People Cut Themselves

These are some of the reasons our readers who "cut" shared with us.
They find it soothing:
To feel pain on the outside instead of the inside
To cope with feelings
To express anger towards themselves
To feel alive and real

A way of communicating what they can't say with words:
To tell people they need help
To get people's attention
To tell people they should be in hospital
An attempt to get people to react to their action:
To get people to care for them
To make other people feel guilty
To drive people away
To get away from stress and responsibility
To manipulate situations or people
Triggering Events Reported by Young Adults Who Self-Injure:
Being rejected by someone who is important to them
Being blamed for something over which they had no control
Feeling inadequate
Being "wrong" in some way

Monday, October 8, 2007

When you set out to cause harm to others, you will harm
yourself even more. If your intend is to deceive, you will
find that you have succeeded in cheating yourself.

Make your purpose to give, and you will end up receiving
something of real and lasting value. When your goal is to
teach, there is much that you will learn.

When you sincerely appreciate others for who they are, you
will be genuinely admired for who you are. Act with respect
in each encounter, and you will be well respected.

The motives that you direct toward others will, without fail
and without exception, affect you as well. You cannot escape
the consequences of your own intentions, so make those
intentions positive.

intend the very best for all of the world around you, and
you will benefit greatly as well. Seek to give nourishment
and support to life, and you will grow stronger with each
passing moment.

What you give to and wish upon your world determines what
comes into your life. Give your very best at all times, and
that is exactly what you'll get.

Thursday, October 4, 2007

1904 St Louis Runabout "FOR SALE"

My Dad is selling his Fathers 1903 St Louis, it has been in the family for over a hundred yrs. I have search through the internet to find information on this runabout built by George Dorris and only one page came up. If you are interested in this 1903 St Louis, please email me and remember that this car has NOT been restored, it is in its orginal condition and due to aging the paint has cracked. My email is ( I dont have any idea on a price to list this car of my Dads, if you can give me some ideas then email me. Thanks again !!!

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

And finally ... I can sleep

My soul is a train whistle
Floating through the night
Haunting, low and mournful
Invisible to sight
My heart is a seashell
Buried in the sand
Convoluted and lovely
But empty in your hand
My mind is aflutter
Like a moth to flame
Singing fragile wing tips on
The embers of my name
My hands are pure potential
Through which my soul can speak
And I pray that I will find
The answers that I seek
I weep in the darkness
Waiting for the train
To whistle for me back my soul
And take away the pain
I hear the train coming
Its whistle low and deep
Its soft tones do comfort me
And finally...
I can sleep

Going to the thrift store for costumes

My daughters and I took a trip to the thrift store to look for costumes, what do you think of our outfits? please leave a comment and tell us what you think...;)

Don't you love to just go into a thrift shop and try on clothing like this?

The Glasses make the picture perfect, what do you think?

should we go to the bank looking like this?

The thrift shop we went to, you could barely move around. It was so packed with clothing, shoes, glasses, coats, and jewlery. We had a blast and the woman that owns the store allowed us to try on just about anything we wanted. It was a moment to always remember. What are you dressing up as is on Halloween? can you guess which one is mee?

Monday, October 1, 2007

Mental Health testing by SSI

Mental Health testing by SSI;
I was worried how this might end up or should I say start up. The Social Security Department sent ME a letter stating that I needed to be evaluated mentally, I don't understand why, but it would be good towards my settling case with Workers’ Comp. I was sad upon arrival, I wanted to act angry, but sadness took over ME.
The questions that the Doctor asked toward the end sadden ME even more, talking about suicidal ideas, I cant say I never thought of them, but I keep thinking of my kids and how they would handle it. I know I wouldn't want that to happen to my parent. But sometimes I wonder if life for them would be more simple without me involved. How long would they grieve over me being out of their lives, the way my life is now, in shambles, losing my job, cell phone, car, and a place to live is pretty bad.
But life goes on each day, wondering what tomorrow will bring ME. I don't really do anything everyday, I just hang out, on the computer. I feel worthless because I cant do much of anything that anyone has asked of ME, because of my injury. I think this has led to be a snowball effect, its bottled up inside of me way to long, and ready to explode.
I keep wanting to just stay numb, not to feel anything, and I’m not just talking about the chronic pain I have, its just life in general. I once had a job that I enjoyed and now I am homeless, “don't pity me“, I am just wanting to be heard, or just venting out and you don't have to continue reading, just click the page a disappear.
The Workers’ Comp. has ruined my life, or maybe it was Interim Health care, that allowed ME to work short staffed on a busy day, actually it wasn't even busy but we were short staffed still.
So, BlaH, bLaH, Blah !!! I scream and shout but it doesn't make any difference, no one really hears ME. I must have a silent scream, or maybe I’m dreaming and haven't woke up, either way, its upsetting, the whole thing is a circus, no one communicates with no one in this crappy system. Its a cycle and all everyone is interested in is themselves making money, and that's the key point ! “money”. No one ever has enough and they are all just plain greedy, maybe I should become one of those and I might of made through all this. First of all, I wouldn't of cared for the patient enough to pull them up during the original injury, then I wouldn't of had the injury at the start. But that's why I loved my nursing job was to communicate with all of the residents and help them the best that I can. So now Workers’ Comp is blaming everything but the original injury, making up stories, and shoving the blame on something else.
So I lost my job, my level of concentration, my cell phones, my car and my house. Here I sit homeless, staying the night with anyone that will have ME and I feel like intruder everywhere. I just don't feel welcomed, I always get the feeling they cant wait for me to leave, I know its because of privacy and clutter and everything else. I have to pack my bags every where I go to stay the night somewhere, using their shower, eating their food and other things. I cant even explain exactly how that makes me feel, mostly sad, so what do I do about that? I grief alone trying to not others see it... I don't want others to see ME grief, cry, and then pity me, I feel enough shame as it is.
My last day working as a Nurse was Feb. 24, 2006. I miss my job and feeling great because I earned the money, but now I feel I have to use the system in order to get any money, because I cant work. Do they seriously think that I enjoy being the way that I am right now? I’ve worked hard most of my adult life time and now I cant work at all, its like taking something very important away from you that you loved, as sad as losing a loved one, divorce or right up with them.
So your wondering how much more am I going to vent, cry, scream out, just so I could just stop typing and you can go on to the next blog to read. well I think I’ve said enough for one setting, that's enough to make me puke, its just plain nauseating.

Information and help with my blogs

It amazes to me how complicated placing ads into my blog is for advertising. I know it can be more simpler, I have not quite got the Knack for it just yet, but I am learning each day. Today I have been searching for sponsors on my blogs. If your interested you can email me @, I’ve been on disability, and Workers Compensation.
I am learning through internet, subscribers and other resources. I feel like I am a slow learner, some of this doesn't make any sense to me. For one thing, what exactly is incoming and out going links, I know that incoming links are more important than out coming links. I wish I had a tutor to explain all of the questi0ons that are rattling within my mind, I find that I am fascinated in blog and web designing, sounds so interesting to me, please take the time to read my other blogs listed to the right, I need some feedback on exactly what the heck I am doing. Thank you !!!