I fall into deep depression, wanting to cry, scream in silence, and I don't have the guts to cut myself. I wonder from day to day where these feelings come from. My lifestyle is a pit hole with no light at the end of the tunnel. I found my happiness through Ted (My Boyfriend), I am truly happy with him, I feel his love for me, when he makes love to me and the way he holds me, he truly cares for me, I am In Love with him, but being In Love is not true happiness, just temperory happiness. When I'm not with him, I am lonely, scared, and frightened of the things I might inflict upon myself.
I pray, with every intention to become better. I write as if I am writing in my personal diary. Today I don't love myself, but tomorrow I might care, its me writing while taking medications and they seem to be over ruled...;(
1 comment:
Oh meemoe
that was so honest. Even though many people run from anything to do with self harm, I actually see the beauty and the creativity in your words.
One of our writers, Rebekah, over at Imaginif writes on self harm. She has taught me such a lot about the reasons why people cut.
My thoughts are with you.
And....I live on the Great Barrier Reef....FANTASTIC fishing in my area.
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